I'm DESPERATE!?

I'm desperate for love. I don't get any love from my parents. My parents say mean stuff just to hurt me. I don't live with them anymore. But I've never felt the love from parents. I think that's the reason why I run after people who show me just a little love. I broke up with my bf- coz he thought I was too desperate for love. I called him a lot. I call my friends a lot too- and they get annoyed. People at work find me annoying- coz I go upto them to talk to them. I'm fine- when I think some guy doesn't like me that way- I dont follow them, I give them their space. I'm outgoing- people find me funny. I think my desperation drives people away- how should I try to be less desperate? I want love in my life. I have no one who loves me. I have many friends- none of them LOVE me! they'r friends with me-coz they find me entertaining or goofy! I'm afraid of being myself- coz people will run away. what shud i do?